16/10/2014

今天下午，终于见到你了。开心开心
嘻嘻 击败人你知道我超想你的。
这样的日子辛苦了点。但是希望因为这样我们会更珍惜彼此。
我不知道以后的日子会是怎么样。。我不敢想。。但至少现在我们是开心的。
虽然你陪我的时间少了但我明白。你是不想依赖着我。
因为以后我没有办法在你熬夜赶工时陪着你。

早上跟老板去打包时，学到了一个人生哲学 - 狼之道。
狼本身是一个贪得无厌的动物。当你给他一块肥肉时，他就会要求更多。
学到了。谢谢你。

现在我什么都不想。只想。。
实现我的梦想。。我父母的梦想。。

击败人 你说你想移民。。其实我真的不知道 以后我有没有这个机会 可以实现你的移民梦。。

坚持

我回来了。。对不起 忽略了你这么久。。
今晚是很难受所以又回来了。。

半年了。。坚持了半年。。不知道我的坚持是对的选择还是错的。但是唯一我觉得很自豪的就是，我已经成功远离毒品。我也学会做家务。出了很多门。。

只是有些事，还是需要时间的证明。才能知道我的坚持到底是对的还是错的。

或许有一天我会看回来我的blog 觉得现在的我很傻。

今晚 真的真的很想一个人。。击败人。。我真的想你了。。
其实我很明白 为什么你会怕。。别说你。。我也怕。

我怕四年后 什么都变了。。
但希望 我不变。。 你不变。。我们一起努力。。好不好？
我知道你不会看到我的blog..但我还是很想在这里跟你说。。
i love you..

我们的约定。。我说过 有一天我会唱着 i surrender.
而你 你会带着你的吉他 跟我真正的告白。

我们一起加油好吗？
我知道你等我很辛苦。。如果有一天 我飞了。。我离开这里了。。
答应我，别忘记我。别忘记我们的约定。我会回来的。

心痛。。

刚才又忍不住开facebook偷偷地看你。。
看到你过得好。。我应该开心还是生气？
开心的是因为你过得好。不需要熬夜。。充分的休息。。
生气的是因为你伤害了我，却和她恩恩爱爱。。
我心痛。。你不懂。。
你只把我当铁。。从来没把我当人。。为什么。。因为你从没想过你对我所做的一切带给我的痛是有多痛。。

29/7/13

You know what.. he finally choose to be with her.. do you know how hurt i am? Im always be there whenever he needs me.. but whenever i need him, he is not there. and now, the girl need him, he is there for her.. How funny... Why I'm so stupid.. fallen for him..

I just cant control myself. But i believe i will and i can move on !

and today, yakuza he confess to me. OMG... i just cant believe....

me and him know each other for long time ago.. but we reli reli seldom contact... and suddenly he confess to me ?? OMG..

finally she knew it..

Finally my mommy knew about us..
Actually i feel relieve cz i really dont know how to her about us...

But she so angry.. for what you wrote bout me in your facebook...

She advice me to not begging u anymore.. yeah.. im not a beggar. I shouldnt beg for your love anymore.

I have to let go, move on, and start my new life. Move on Jaynice !

I Need Your Love ...

Thanks to ah bi for introducing me this song.

I love this song so much !!!!!!

This song makes me cry whenever i listen to it...

Every morning i wake up
I try to find my way
Carry on to be strong
Try to make it on my own - yeah
I never thought we could break up
Never had a single doubt
Now I'm all alone
The feeling's hanging on
Since you went away
I think about you every day
You know my love is here to stay
I can't believe it's true
I need your love tonight
I only want to hold you tight
I I I need your love tonight
To keep my fantasy
Baby I need your love tonight
I only want to make it right
I I I need your love tonight
Love come back to me
Baby I need your love
Every moment I wonder
If I let you slip away
Keeping track going back
To the good times that we had - oh
Since you went away ...
I need your love tonight ...

Heartbroken

Im hurt.. my heart is dying..
Im trying to be happy front of my family and friends.. but i don't know why.. i will lost control when i look at alycia. maybe i put too much hope on him. I tot we can manage it.

I thought we can grow old together.. but why.. Suddenly everything change !

The night u confess to me.. I know u meant it when you say you love me.. Its not the kind of best friend or sister like you say. I thought we gonna get marry ..

I can feel it.. i can feel it you always trying to avoid having time alone with me.. you rather ask your friend to accompany you ... Maybe its my problem.. You don't love me at all... I always lying myself..

Im waiting u to come back from Indonesia. I thought this is just a short distance between us. But who knows. After two days..

DO YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL WHEN I SAW ESTHER ARARA WROTE THOSE STATUS !!!!!!!!
DO YOU KNOW !! IM YOUR GF TOO ! BUT WHY THE GAL SAYING TAT SHE IS YOUR GF TOO ! DO YOU KNOW HOW HURT I AM !

The most regret decision i had made in my entire whole life is TO STAY MIRI JUST BECAUSE OF YOU ! and I've hurt my best sister ! I know she very disappointed on me.. I really don't know how to apologize to her...

I HATE YOU SO MUCH... I HATE YOU FOR WHY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...
I treat you like you are my world.. I sacrifice so many .. My friends scolded me. I thought they don't understand. But Im wrong !!!!!!!

In fact im the one who always WRONG !
I always made the wrong wrong wrong decision !!!!!!
You said you will give me your heart. You say you will truly love me !
But in the end !!!! WHAT DID YOU GAVE ME WONG KO LIANG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Whenever i reached home.. I so scare... I so scare mommy will suddenly talk about you.. I don't know how to explain to her that we are over !

Sometimes I really feels like I want to get off from here.. Im tired... I wanna get rest....

The more I love you.. The more I hate you..

At first, there is no more hate in my life.. i live my life happily.. But now! my heart full of hate !
I feel so insecure ! and I feel so scare of myself !!!!

Oh LORD.. please be with me ... Please...