心痛。。

刚才又忍不住开facebook偷偷地看你。。
看到你过得好。。我应该开心还是生气？
开心的是因为你过得好。不需要熬夜。。充分的休息。。
生气的是因为你伤害了我，却和她恩恩爱爱。。
我心痛。。你不懂。。
你只把我当铁。。从来没把我当人。。为什么。。因为你从没想过你对我所做的一切带给我的痛是有多痛。。

29/7/13

You know what.. he finally choose to be with her.. do you know how hurt i am? Im always be there whenever he needs me.. but whenever i need him, he is not there. and now, the girl need him, he is there for her.. How funny... Why I'm so stupid.. fallen for him..

I just cant control myself. But i believe i will and i can move on !

and today, yakuza he confess to me. OMG... i just cant believe....

me and him know each other for long time ago.. but we reli reli seldom contact... and suddenly he confess to me ?? OMG..

finally she knew it..

Finally my mommy knew about us..
Actually i feel relieve cz i really dont know how to her about us...

But she so angry.. for what you wrote bout me in your facebook...

She advice me to not begging u anymore.. yeah.. im not a beggar. I shouldnt beg for your love anymore.

I have to let go, move on, and start my new life. Move on Jaynice !

I Need Your Love ...

Thanks to ah bi for introducing me this song.

I love this song so much !!!!!!

This song makes me cry whenever i listen to it...

Every morning i wake up
I try to find my way
Carry on to be strong
Try to make it on my own - yeah
I never thought we could break up
Never had a single doubt
Now I'm all alone
The feeling's hanging on
Since you went away
I think about you every day
You know my love is here to stay
I can't believe it's true
I need your love tonight
I only want to hold you tight
I I I need your love tonight
To keep my fantasy
Baby I need your love tonight
I only want to make it right
I I I need your love tonight
Love come back to me
Baby I need your love
Every moment I wonder
If I let you slip away
Keeping track going back
To the good times that we had - oh
Since you went away ...
I need your love tonight ...

Heartbroken

Im hurt.. my heart is dying..
Im trying to be happy front of my family and friends.. but i don't know why.. i will lost control when i look at alycia. maybe i put too much hope on him. I tot we can manage it.

I thought we can grow old together.. but why.. Suddenly everything change !

The night u confess to me.. I know u meant it when you say you love me.. Its not the kind of best friend or sister like you say. I thought we gonna get marry ..

I can feel it.. i can feel it you always trying to avoid having time alone with me.. you rather ask your friend to accompany you ... Maybe its my problem.. You don't love me at all... I always lying myself..

Im waiting u to come back from Indonesia. I thought this is just a short distance between us. But who knows. After two days..

DO YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL WHEN I SAW ESTHER ARARA WROTE THOSE STATUS !!!!!!!!
DO YOU KNOW !! IM YOUR GF TOO ! BUT WHY THE GAL SAYING TAT SHE IS YOUR GF TOO ! DO YOU KNOW HOW HURT I AM !

The most regret decision i had made in my entire whole life is TO STAY MIRI JUST BECAUSE OF YOU ! and I've hurt my best sister ! I know she very disappointed on me.. I really don't know how to apologize to her...

I HATE YOU SO MUCH... I HATE YOU FOR WHY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...
I treat you like you are my world.. I sacrifice so many .. My friends scolded me. I thought they don't understand. But Im wrong !!!!!!!

In fact im the one who always WRONG !
I always made the wrong wrong wrong decision !!!!!!
You said you will give me your heart. You say you will truly love me !
But in the end !!!! WHAT DID YOU GAVE ME WONG KO LIANG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Whenever i reached home.. I so scare... I so scare mommy will suddenly talk about you.. I don't know how to explain to her that we are over !

Sometimes I really feels like I want to get off from here.. Im tired... I wanna get rest....

The more I love you.. The more I hate you..

At first, there is no more hate in my life.. i live my life happily.. But now! my heart full of hate !
I feel so insecure ! and I feel so scare of myself !!!!

Oh LORD.. please be with me ... Please...

Insomnia Night !!

Im tired.. I've tried to sleep.. but i cant..

those questions running through my head ..

 when you say we are never never ever getting back together.. im heart broken !

why should we end up like this? becuz of misunderstanding.. we end up like this..

i hate my self.. i hate her.. but i know i should hate her.. but i just don know how to face her how to talk to her !

we hanging out together.. im happy u know.. but u are not belongs to me anymore..

I miss you.. i miss you so much.....

and now im still thinking.. shud i go to singapore?

im coming back..

Hi sayang.. Its being ages im nt here.. im sorry..

What happened within this two years? A lot !!

I'm in love.. but at the end im heart broken..

I love him.. but his heart doesn't belongs to me...

I fall in love with a song recently..

" I dont wanna talk about it.. how you broke my heart.. "

A guy named KWKL.. he loves me from the start, but hurt me in the end..

A gal named JNSY... she loves him from the start.. always and forever..